The tortured mind of a gentle soul that was never meant for the cruelty of this world, Laura’s obsessive, unrequited love for her beloved Mubarak sent her on a downward spiral that culminated in her falling to her death from the 148th floor of the Burj Khalifa, Dubai, the tallest building in the world, on the 16th of November 2014. She was 38 years old. Her death was covered up by the government of Dubai.
This book is a collection of Laura’s thoughts, notes, emails, and messages that she left behind on her iPhone, her tablet, her computer, a laptop, and in her paperwork and documents, in the years and months leading up to her tragic suicide.
From Laura…page 70… 3 June 2010, Saudi Arabia
“Follow your heart.
So I follow my heart
it swirls with energy when it thinks of being back with you.
Like adrenaline that rushes through me
nudging and pushing me to go back and be reunited once again!
Dubai, I love you, but fear keeps me from you!!!”
In the material Laura left behind, she often referred to her fear of being in Dubai.
The photograph.
Laura took the picture when she visited Dubai for the weekend of 4 – 6 October 2014. She was working in Doha, Qatar, at the time. In a message to a friend she said that she was going to see ‘my man’.
When I was visiting Dubai after Laura’s death, I communicated with Mubarak via email, and I asked him about that weekend. He said that he hadn’t seen her but I didn’t believe him. However, after sifting through what she left behind, they hadn’t met.
Mubarak had also denied seeing her a few days before her death, but WhatsApp messages between them, disputed it.
From Laura…page 37… 21 October 2009, Dubai/Bahrain
From Laura…page 25… 4 October 2009, Dubai/Bahrain
From Laura…page 159 21 January 2012, Dubai
From Laura…
16 March 2012, Dubai…page 169
“The world we live in today is one of great fear, and ego driven lives
where each one of us
on an energy level
are picking up such vibrations from each other…
creating a world of chaos and confusion.
While if we just sat and listened and breathed the air of love and trust
we could create peace within us
and the world around us.”
12 August 2012, Dubai, page 192
True Love…The Beloved (for Mubarak)
“Everything that I keep buried inside, (both my pain and my feelings for you), keep rushing to the surface, and every time I try to run away, something keeps bringing me back to you. Why?”
26 February 2014…as Laura was about to leave Portugal for the Middle East…
“I’d rather live my truth and suffer in silence, than try to explain things to people who, no matter how hard you try to make them understand, will never understand…and be at peace. For silence is a virtue.”
19 September 2013…
“Feel as it moves within you…feel it as it lifts you… Feel it as it it frees you…surrender to it’s will…
The Will of Allah… The will of pain and love combined…
The call of the heart…the call of the universe, That being LOVE!!!”
